I was composing a blog post in my head today. It was kind of twisted and sad. You get in these moods sometimes, right? But then I just watched the Kathy Griffin show on Bravo, "my life on the d-list" and it's the one where her father dies. I am sitting here crying and I realize how completely self-indulgent my earlier idea for a post was.
For a while I was trying to live by "The Secret". Revealed by Oprah. The thoughts/emotions/actions you express determine what you get back in life. If you concentrate on what you DON'T want, then all your energies are compressed into your negative thoughts. Instead, try concentrating on what you DO want. Try it. It's amazing. My life was changing somewhat and I was feeling good, but you know what...I got back into my old habits. So whether it's a dynamic that I create myself out of habit, or whether it's my brain chemicals acting in their own natural way I don't know. This time of year always seems to be difficult for me. And that makes sense because our regular life structure changes--the end of school, camp hasn't started yet. Funny how the structure of MY life is ruled by my children's schedules.
But what's important is love, and our quest for true happiness and peace. How much we foster or hinder the quests of our loved ones, and ourselves. How much we live in the present, and all the peace we can actually experience if we are not always fretting about the past or future.
Shalom.
Namaste.
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